MY LIFE WITHOUT HER

It was a quiet and peace September 26, 2003, a beautiful and cute baby was born and it was me. I only had one mom when I was born. I am the youngest in the family, it was my first birthday when I was being part as a Christians which is my Baptism Day, and people gathered and joined our party as an adorable baby I rest for my beauty. There is a one beautiful fine lady that I met one of my godmothers whose name is “Letty. Day by day I will always with them whenever my mom is not around going out wherever there’s an urgent things I will always left with her sometimes they will send me home because I don’t to all I want is always with her and my uncles started to pissed me that she’s not my mother but I’ll keep saying “yes!, She was” while crying, that’s why we are very closed to each other. As I grew up I also treated her as my second mother and as a second family. I was 2 and 8 months old when they gave me the role as a little bride for her daughter’s wedding March 05, 2006.

How our relationship became more stronger.

March 05, 2006 it was the day when I really became part of their family treat me as their daughter. They spoiled with love and care. Many years past by our relationships became stronger every Christmas I’ll received a gift from them every. Even my mama Letty has her own granddaughters their treatment never changed it much more stronger than before I also treat that baby as my sister and filled them with loved and joy even our second name are the same my name is Irish Joy, Resyl Joy and Ruby Joy . We go to beach and malls together to have fun. Even though she and my mom had a misunderstanding sometimes never talked about a year not in regards to jealousy there is actually a personal reasons. never bothers me I will always go to their house and do some chit chats no matter what. Whenever I have a problems she is my crying shoulder who I know that she do really understand me she cheer me up , yes I do not rants about my problems to my real family due to some reasons that I can’t say for now. Whenever my mama Letty cries it really hurts me and I promised to myself that my dream is also for her and I will become successful one day not just for my family but also to them who helped me in everything financially or emotionally.

How we lost her.

My inspiration is also her because she also gave me strength and thousands of reasons to move forward despite of many struggles that I’ve been through. My source of strength was getting older and made me felts sad one of my greatest fear is losing someone that I truly loved. The time came when my mama Letty’s turning 63 it was July 21, 2021, we are so excited to celebrate her birthday and we’ve planned to surprised her since it was here birthday. Me and Joy-joy her granddaughter decided to make some excuses for us to go out to buy some cake and ice cream .We told her that we would buy some fertilizers for my cousin’s farm, I was so shocked when she said before we leave “ayaw mo ug palit ug cake ha?, bantay lang” we laughed, are the tricks we did is kind an obvious? We asked to ourselves. Later that on we arrived at home safely and she wasn’t surprise her thoughts as truly true and she said “last Na ni ninyong palit ug cake ha?” we laughed again. She truly mean it that was the last time buying her some cakes celebrating together after 1 month she left us and I couldn’t stop blaming myself for not visiting her every day she was sick and I wasn’t expecting that it was her last day. I was sleeping that day when Joy-joy run towards to me wake me up and said” Dat, si Loli” I couldn’t remember how many times she had. My world stop I don’t want to do and keep blaming myself for everything and now I really missed her. I’ve changed in regards to that I may lost her but I will not let her down pursue my dream for everyone and I will forever cherish those memories we have we will continue everything for my mama letty and in this present time I also used to call her daughter “Mama” I am forever grateful to have them and being part of their family.” No one can end the relationship until my last breath” I promised that I missed her so much.